@NIa - I like your anxiom alot nia, “make new friends but keep the old”. yeah that’s true. I agree with that. I wish someday what yousaid will all come true: the real estate, etc… Life is indeed beautiful my friend.

@Dom - haha. people will still accept you “padre” no matter what, like me and your brothers did in your monastery. The song by the way is “Sandalan by 6 cycle mind”. it was supposed to be “crying” by aerosmith or “don’t cry” by guns and roses but its too melancholic and dark. i changed it to “boys dont cry” by cure but its too soft, I can’t almost hear the lyrics. Actually I hate “sandalan”… it reminds me of someone who never came nor did greet me on my bday, hehe I was expecting so much from that person on my bday…

@Kip - haha the word is vomit kip. You’re practically right. everything has a purpose and proven already in my past experiences. “Kinkiest”, she went bald after she transferred from other school because some of the guys there teased her also. poor thing. anyway two years ago we met in a mall, and I initiated the conversation, and somehow along the line, I asked her forgiveness, She just laughed at it saying its been years. she said, she wouldn’t have remembered it If i hadn’t reminded her.

@Reynz - I guess if my mom and dad’s petition was approved when I was young, we would all be in jail right now because of me haha. I seldom cry when I was a kid, only in some instances where I am really physically hurt like falling from a 2 story “istar-apol” tree. But when I had my human formation inside the seminary, the gate of tears were opened. and I have been crying eversince. Hahaha. kung is pa siguro ako dun sa mga nangaalaska sayo baka pinakulam mo na ako noh hahaha. suplada ka pala reynsz sa personal hahaha, buti di umurong ang dila nung mga nakausap mo hahaha.

@K - may kapatid ka pala na “ex-sem”. I remember what it feels like to fail the expectations of your loved ones and friends. It’s awful feeling i tell you arggggh! Dati I’m embarassed crying but now immune na ako because it is being human. Somehow crying has a health benefit. it lessens the risk of heart attack.and you know what, crying once or twice a month, whether public or private (but I suggest you do it in the comfort of your own personal time and privacy) will make you even more happy because you are regularly releasing your vented tensions and frustrations. My friends in grade school and high school who knew me personally for so long never knew this side of me until I left the seminary. and nothing changed actually. My masculinity did not diminished just because I admit that I cry once in a while. I totally agree with you on that bro. We have the same frequency.

its very refreshing to read all your comments guys!

God Bless!

I suck when I’m writing fast, I make mistakes.

I’m a weeper I may say. Sometimes it embarrasses me to say that but, mostly, I seem to recognize that the tears as a good thing. When homesickness strikes upon me, it felt great afterwards as what the music you’re playing here suggest “it’s OK to cry”.

I’m a cry baby (or was!) and because of that, I received all the negative labels available out there! I was called - bakla! binabae! iyakin! everything! and the more i cried because it pissed me like crazy whenever i get called by those names.

I still remember the very people who made me cry at nakkkuuuu kung isa ka rpon, yariiiii ka sakin dong!

In any case, time passed. Gumanda ako nang todo. Gumandang gumanda as in wala nang pigil talaga.

Den,

Reunions, pasko, pyesta or everytime I go home to Pinas, I would chance upon them kahit saan and guess what - ako ngayon ang natatawa. He He He!

Minsan, I would act like one ugly stupid bitch just for the heck of it! One time, I spoke straight english with the usual american twang and acted like I don’t unnderstand bicol and tagalog no more! HA HA HA! Dang! Honestly, I even speak Cebuano! HA HA HA!

And one time? I asked one enemy kung ano yong tinapa!!! Ha Ha Ha I was the talk of the town for months! As in notoriety ever ever!!!

I LOVE THOSE MOMENTS!!!! it’s called - GIVING BACK!

But anyway, Army, what I like about your posts is the fact that it’s funny, full of laughs and yet, there is an experience of yours for us to learn from

And “the kinkiest of all hair strands”? You’re dang funny!

And being only 18 :p I can’t say that I know what you mean, in terms of the dating/broken hearts part of the story, but I guess, everything happens for a reason and take things slow. I know people say to seize the day, but I prefer to go with the flow.

How does that sound?

Take care, brother!